Prayer for the day:
Dear God, Thank you for the gift of a new day. Remind me continually that you are all I need. May my actions, words, thoughts, and deeds reflect that today. May I not dwell on negative thoughts or things that have happened in the past. May those things, which I may have perceived incorrectly, not influence my life right here, right now.
Lord, thank you for loving me just as I am. Thank you for being with me and transforming me. Thank you that I finally believe that change is not only possible, but something you want for me because you love me. And you give me everything I need to make it happen.
Today, I rebuke the evil spirit of gluttony, of self medicating with food, and of self indulgence. Today I will embrace you and indulge in your great love for me.
In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. Amen.
On Wednesday it will be nineteen weeks since I joined Weight Watchers. I have lost 28.2 pounds. I feel infinitely better about me, about life, about the future, and even about other people.
Weight Watchers works for me because it’s not a gimmick. I do the work. I make the changes. WW is how I hold myself accountable and it is my support group.
This is my first blog post. In the days and weeks to come I want to share my journey with whoever finds their way here and decides to read what I have written. There’s probably nothing profound here: just honesty, self-evaluation, and maybe some bit of advice that someone will find helpful in their own journey.
For now I will say this: I will be fifty-four years old this coming Monday. I have lost a significant amount of weight three other times in my life, about once a decade. I have always gained it back.
I have been afraid to try again for many years because I fear failure. I mean seriously, why bother if I am just going to put it all back on?
But part of me seems to be that I am not a quitter. I have also been quite miserable about how I feel physically, and how that affects me mentally and emotionally. And that’s really sad because the rest of my life is so very good. I have great friends, I love my job, and even my family has grown closer and stronger after many years of extreme dysfunction and chaos. For the first time ever, I don’t have to worry about every single penny that I spend.
When I joined WW at the end of June, I went into it determined to not only change my body, but also to change my mindset.
That meant giving up the old cassette tape of lies that I have always let run through my mind.
That meant being honest about who I am and how I eat.
That meant that as a Christian, I needed to invite God along on this journey.
And it means living into who I was created to be by my Creator God.
I want to be the best version of me that I can be.
That’s what this blog is all about.